HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL.

As said, probably one of the most hectic year, where I really found the need to forget, forgive, adapt, and letting go.

There were times when I desperately need the year to slow down. In case you have not noticed, it was hell of a fast year. There were times too, when I needed the year to speed up, to heal and clean some emotional scars. Well, being the year of the Cock (the Chinese calendar has a knack for humour), naturally Time never waits, nor, haste. Lol.

So I pray; it'll be a good year 2006. Where, hahaha... I will have to be truthful to myself.

Resolutions:
Save more money,
cut down on the jealousy streak,
be more truthful,
and also, cut down on my sarcasm (well it fails every year but it doesnt hurt to try again does it)

Mama knows about Asw. All the more, I could not give a damn. :)

ofblack&white
11:47 PM

School is reopening. We love obvious statements don't we?

I slept over my Grand's for the last time in December. It is awfully cosy there. Or maybe I like old people? Do I? I talk alot to them. Well, commotions as usual with my uncle and aunts who came over for dinner there. Such a roar. I was forced to bathe in the evening. I was bribed a Milo and marshmellows. Such a clever aunt I have.

I, being the slow one, realised that the other Funland at Bedok has TWO STORIES chock-filled with arcade games. Hoo lala. The first was dedicated to shooting games, racing games, the likes. The second was just, arcade games, KOF the likes. Haha... What else I went crazy.

Weird dreams are plagueing me again. Yesterday I dreamt that YanLing had a boyfriend, and other weird silly dramatics. I remembered vaguely when I woke up yesterday I asked her straight away if she had a boyfriend in her closet. Lol. The reply she gave me!!

I want: a Black Tiger and the Ghost. =( Somebody buy it for me.

ofblack&white
11:58 AM

I was moved to near-tears (gravity thankfully failed) while watching some tributes to the Tsunami that occured the past year.

I finished the Lucifer's Shadow by David Hewson, and oh, was it wonderful! Set in the country of Venice, dreamily pictured by young untainted men a place of dreams, but was then horribly shattered by a web of deceit and greed, of lust and of desperation. It revolves around music, a certain 'Concerto Anonimo'. It has two stories centuries apart, but then woven and drawn together by that script, or piece if you may call it. So much conspiracy, you don't even know which to trust. Marvelously written, worth my 13.80$.

Anyway enough of this publications, I seemed to be promoting items and places at no cost at all. I thought of my love life with music. That, my friends, will be next time I guess.

Run, try to hide, overwhelmed, by this complex delirium.

ofblack&white
11:50 PM

Ok. So that was my picture-trip for the day. I still think this blog layout is small, thus, Hani, I trust you to do one for me. Gothic, dark, or sentimental. Thank you.

A belated wish to Osha and my brother,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!
(it falls on the 24th)

To my cousin,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!
(it falls on the 26th, today.)

Malaysia was fun. I see many little clouds floating around, cute. It rained boys and girls again.

Sights and sounds, so many of them. I passed by many boutiques which made me feel rich, yet poor. Rich because I am walking around them, poor because I can't afford. A nice Givenchy handbag fetched a 4-digit sum. Ridiculous I tell you.Daviddoff pipe that cost a roof, good God, would people really spent that sum for a measly pipe? We could use it to feed the poor.

On the wee morning of Christmas, we saw cans lying around, many strips of papers that were strewn, and an occasional shoe that littered the street. People with santa hats hugging each other, drunken shouts of 'Merry Christmas' filled the streets. That is what you'll get if you walked down the hot-shopping-spot at 2-3 in the morning.

If you might be wondering, my extended family and I were feeling hungry at that hour, since our dinner was at 8 pm, the earliest by far. Lol.

Things I'd rather know. "It's me they hear".

ofblack&white
7:20 PM

During my trip in Malaysia, I learnt in a different way. We can travel as we learn can we not? The one thing I can definitely learn in this December season is of course... TREES.




Ok pause. Not THOSE kind of tropical trees. I meant these:




A very odd-ball triangular christmas tree, one-of-a-kind. Can be found only in Royal Prince Hotel, Kuala Lumpur.




An exceptionally tall christmass tree that spanned all 5 storeys. 6 if you would like to include basement. The KLCC display definitely belittled the one in Takashimaya and Givingtree@NorthEast.




The last of the peculiar trees I've found, perhaps the most peculiar.
Finally, ladies and gentlemen, we've observed a Christmas tree that is not green and red. We should give Mariott Hotel an applause for their creativity to be... different and exclusive. The tree itself bore not only golden orbs, but pictures of loved ones with messages.


Kuala Lumpur not only display magnificent trees to suit the season. It also housed beautiful architechture...



A toilet that provides much comfort and atmosphere. How I love. It is so spacious, it could fit two bathing, with still so much space to move (An experiment have been conducted to verify this).



Ah. Airy, high-ceilinged room with English lamps to lit it up. And to top it off, the cleaning personel is, by far, the cutest Indonesian I have met.



A reflection off the gilted-frame mirror located just outside the room. Once again, it showed the magnificent interior, and warm carpeted floor.



Cosy no? You could positively melt in these marshmellowy bed, and an even marshmellowy pillows. Such heaven to rest your tired bones.



And finally, a French-like street, with an equally French-like buildings. It screamed cosiness. They make pizzas like the French too.




Ah. The pizza I was referring to. The lumps? My uncle explained to me that when the pizza was taken out of the oven, it bumped onto the oven door, thus bearing many... bumps on itself. Of course I did not buy it. But my cousins did. It tasted much better than it looks. We polished off 3 amongst ourselves. Whoever said Malaysia was food heaven, I salute you.


Of course we have a fair share of punks roaming the streets...



Need I say more?

If time is right, there's always Nike.




The infamous logo that stomp the world.



With all the blooms in Malaysia, need I ask for more?
With the wonderful scrumptious dining and hotels, with its year-round sales, cheap yet quality buys, unlimited boutiques to drown ourselves into, beautiful scenery to feast our eyes on, what more could complete our trip?




Well. A nice tiramisu ice-cream from my beloved Baskin and Robbins should complete my trip. :)


Hahah... I was bored and since Emmi requested pictures on my supposedly boring blog, here you go. Malaysia should pay me for promoting.

ofblack&white
5:37 PM

I'm going off to KL tonight, just for the weekend. Not for shopping actually, just to wind down. Oh. And of course the food. I'll pray; Crumplers are cheaper there. Nike's having a gigantic sale. Victoria Station will be empty (fat hope).

Mich still wants her blue bubble gums. And earrings. I'll get a little something for my beloveds.
I still owe dearest Yanling a call. I am very sorry. Time is short. Like me. =(

Fly away. Hikki-san, tell me what's the game that caught your eye, and I'll get it for you at Bedok. I owe Wy her chocolates. And Aza made me guilty when I had to turn down his request. I'll help out during New Year's Eve ok?

Till Monday.

ofblack&white
11:10 PM

Ha. I finally got my year-long grudge off my back. But I still bear that tiny hint of resentment. And now she betrayed my trust. Hahaha... I haven't had revenge my dear. Just wait.

I'm tired, and money just flew into my pocket again. I'm happy.

Lonely as a star.

ofblack&white
11:05 PM

It was a miracle that I ATTEMPTED holiday assignments two weeks before school reopens. I mean, I usually take them out the day before. I am proud of myself!

Anyway tuition was tuition. I realised I'm beyond repair. I am so rusty I forgot all my formulas. And I am even struggling with simple differentiation, and simple topics like Elasticity. This calls for a revision. My mind says yes, but the heart screamed NO (the Chinese style). No racist remarks intended. Don't blame me. They always quarrell.

I am splurging today. It has been nearly a week since I've been near an arcade. Gosh. Whatever happened to abstinence? Nevermind. At least I am meeting two lovely birds of mine to splurge with. I am a happy girl.

I was mildly irritated on an early Wednesday morning. To be precise, at 2 in the morning. He calls anymore and he is dead. At such unholy hour.
I do not want to be bugged anymore. Get out you.

ofblack&white
9:18 AM

The authentic shop till we drop. I was mildly surprised that I could last from 12 to 12 out in Orchard and elsewhere.

Between mom, abg Raq and me, 300$ flew by. That does not include lunch at Breeks, high tea at Coffee Bean and dinner at Katong. Oh and the Famous 'Amos. As usual Orchard is a pretty sight at night. I did not know that many people went to town even in the afternoon. I only bought 2 Triumphs, 3 Sorellas, 2 of my most-loved McBlues (to replace the old one that bore an enormous hole), a beautiful pair of crystal earrings, and... I think that is all?


Gotten a present for bro. I was ogling and drooling at the Crumplers, mom said she'll get me one at KL, or at Paragon, I do not know. All I care is that I get one. And the totes alongside Heeren? Eyeing that too. And most definitely a pair of Converses or Nike. What else? Oh... A warm snugly jacket. Few tops.
What's the best thing you may ask?
Mom's paying. Ha.

I hope some people know when to stop. I made some White (no racist pun intended) go "ooh" and "ahh" at- of all places- the men's changing room. Just flourishing the few tricks I learnt. Hey Kev are you proud of me?! Lol.

Of love; what do they know? I was happy.

ofblack&white
12:21 AM

We drove by Orchard last night, and it was a pretty sight, though I really preferred last year's colours. It was gold and red all over. Pretty. Groups happily caroling away. Really pretty sight. And people throng the streets like there's no tomorrow.

Kev taught me some wonders, and got my head spinning. How nice. My first time to Hougang Mall. I know, pathetic. Lunched at Mac -where else- with Weiying and Lailai. Letting loose. There's even an arcade there. My eyes gleam, but they dragged me out. Horrible aren't they?

I hope I can.

ofblack&white
3:25 PM

I've been busy. Either that or I am just too lazy, tired, or lazy to update. Did I say lazy twice? Nevermind.

We played on Saturday morning. I was fairly (more like VERY) irritated by the fat player with white specs. Ok I am usually not sizist mean what have you. She insults other players. Other players who, I think, ought to be respected rather than made fun of. So in turn I cursed them under my breath, or loud enough for some to hear me. I spend alot yesterday. After paying Zhong her 5$ and paying for the airhockey game, I continued on Time Crisis II. And that is when I felt really broke. Really. Broke.

Had dinner out yesterday at Bedok Corner. I felt cheated because I thought we were celebrating Dad's birthday yesterday. Missed the 4J barbecue. Who said I wasn't pissed? But nevermind. Died at Cafe Vienna. The food was just heavenly today. I ate so much I wasn't sure I could move. Bread pudding was done marvelously, as was the salmon, and poached fish. Though my throat rejected the sashimi, I did not know why.

am still wondering how I could fall in and out. In and out.

ofblack&white
10:14 PM

I'm up to my 100th post. That is fast.

I want to type alot of reflections, but I guess we could leave that for New Year shall we?
Anyway all I could say is, this year has yet been another one filled with unfathomable experiences, emotions, fresh memories to cherish alone at night. I hate reminiscing, but I remember starting this blog becasue ElJay holds too much. Now it no longer hurt. I just have to make believe I am not to know I am not. I do blog still in ElJay. I made brand new friends, I didn't know I was capable. And I manage to control my vulgarities unlike the past.
I changed, and I'm glad. :)

Anyways I've been up to my neck with activities the past few days. There's Math tuition on Wednesday. I went to Science Centre and the Snow City, and posed with Harry Potter. Yesterday I met my much-missed Hazel, Qing and Hazel's cousin. Nature calls midway KingKong, and Qing's whistling and watery-noises was not helping me at all. KingKong won my heart.

Mac-ed and we ram into each other in BumperCar. Fantastico, I should say. Did patrolling around again. And someone was being cheeky.

Can't stay long. Competition in and hour's time. Praying for good weather, not too hot not too cold. Praying for the health of all players. And lastly;
Praying Rugrats could do it.

ofblack&white
6:45 AM

One more post till my 100th.

Anyway I slept over with THE girls over at bungalow 29, NSRCC. Couldn't say slept over, since most of us didn't sleep till 7 in the morning. I'll be droning on and on about it, blow by blow account. So, if you cannot spare me patience, I would suggest you stop reading.

Howells. Met up with Zhong Siti Clare at Bedok Interchange. As expected, everybody came... late. Suppose to meet at 1130 but ended up meeting at 12. Went Macs, brunched, and met with Cas and Star. NTUC beckoned for us to buy utensils and whatnot. Rushed off to Tanah Merah MRT station. Funny joke about Cas's mom throwing the knife through the window and stabbing someone in process. Was mixed up with 'which side of the road should we stand' and finally board the nice air-conditioned shuttle bus to NSRCC.

Fran Kat (a sick one at that) and Esther were already waiting at the reception. The place was marvelous I tell you. They renovated it and everything looks gorgeous. Checked in and everybody plonked their asses in front of the TV watching Survivior. Not much of a fan, neither is Fran so we took all the food out and stuff it in the fridge. We have a free dead fish smell from the separate freezer, so now we couldn't use it without smelling like a dead body.

Set out to play street soccer on the basketball court at 5.30. Funny to see all 9 girls running around screaming for the ball. Attracted a fairshare of on-lookers, those busybodies. I didn't know what wrong I did, but I was repaid with terrible BLISTERS all over, especially my big toe. Now my big toe is missing a fair amount of skin. The other sole is on the verge of peeling now. Went to play a game or two of pool with Kat and Zhong. Came back and voila!
Barbeque time baby.

Caara and Amanda arrived, as does Farhana and Nurul. Vanessa also, from Thailand. Nice house filled with girls. Started toasting marshmellows first. Star's marshy caught fire. The rest kept dropping them on the floor. Big waste I'd say. Then out with inventions: Sambal Hotdog, Sambal Fishballs, Sambal Crabmeat. Weird combi yes, but the taste is incomparable like Jay. Stingray chicken satay nice meat and steak were out. Along with prawns too. Very nice meal.

Went out at 9.30 to the recreational area, and busied oursleves with arcade, airhockey and pool. I was mildly surprise that Esther knows how to play pool, and she is fairly good at it. Funny affair, for we dominated the whole place. And I trashed Cara 7-2 (I think) in airhockey. Should hear her screams. Didn't get to bowl for the fat asshole of a receptionist wanted to be home early. It's suppose to close at 11 pm, but he closed it at 10.30. Told you he was an ass. We walked back and continued just a bit on food. The rest were captivated by Project Runaway, but not Cas Kat Zhong and me. We went out for a game of pingpong.

We were sorely dissapointed when we were told that the table tennis... table was no longer around. Undaunted though. Just sat near the koi pond, grabbed a redundant table, and started to send volleys to each other. Pingpong wasn't the usual affair. Had to say out words associating with a theme given, something out of a Chinese show apparently. I love the one where you had to say different swear words. I especially love the story about Sally. Went back at 12 plus.

Mr Poh and wife was there, so were Nadia and Shirley, and a game of heart attack (is it?) was in process. We joined in and it was much laughs. Silly game. Loser (Cara and Clare) had to clean up the tables. I was thankful. Had a midnight bath, and all settled down to watch Under The Tuscan Sun. It was lovely. After Mr Poh's debrief, everybody (except the five) huddled on the four matresses and sofas. I had to be beside Zhong hahaha. But the show was nice.

There was a slight... rift and commotion after that, something I would refrain from typing in an unprotected blog. Some of us were feeling slightly miffed, and we went to the playground (except for Esther, she's pooped out). That was about 5 I should think. Sat around, talked and talked. Mutual feeling all around. I hope it gets settled soon. Since Jin Cas Kat Zhong and me were still bubbling with energy, we went in hopes to see the sunrise.

Well, as usual our hopes were dashed. Walked back by the beach and played a short game of soccer at the open field. You can feel the dews between your toes, wonderful, but also slightly... yucky cause the grass stuck to you. Went back to 29 and slacked a while more still. Surrendered and we slept from 8 till... 9. Check out time was 10. Had everybody scampering around cleaning up, packing and all. Zhong looked really like a Filipino maid scrubbing the kitchen floor (she likes it bytheway). Vanessa and I had a great laugh.

Breakfast was longan and watermelons. We gave away what's remaining to the Canoeists and our neighbour. Most of the rest went home, whereas Fran Kat Vanessa Clare and I were still energetic I suppose. Brunched at LJS. Finally went off at 1. And i didn't even go home.

I didn't sleep, but it didn't matter. Anyhows let us hope everything won't spoil Saturday for us. It was a fantastic chalet all in all, even with moments that could spoil our day. :)
Pictures will be up next two entries. The next is my 100th. Lol.

ofblack&white
6:20 PM

It's these days that has taken a toll on me. Sleeping at two every night and waking up at ridiculous hours really reduced me to the pits. Yesterday's jam at Secondlink was the classic.

Chacha's house screamed cosiness as usual. Lol. I'm in love with her cat. My handphone is filled with it. It really seemed to be the epitome of cuteness after all. Chatted (in our own girly fashion, its ok, you boys won't understand) till two. Woke up at 7. Lol.

Set off in the noon and reached Uncle Kamal's. We stayed there for freaking nine hours. How did I spend my time? Oh, eat, play, eat and... play. Exciting no? Thank God my heart didn't burst with all the excitement (rolls eyes). Many cousins, the usual fun. Boys and men will always be cheaters. Well, in my family that is.

Tired. My feet stepped on Singapore's soil at 1.30 yesterday. And I have to be up early for today. Blah. I do not think I'll be having an early night today, seeing that I'll be sleeping over with the girls at Tanah Merah.

Ohwells. Somethings still hurt. And i've gotten Weiying's gums and Michlai's BLUE gums. =.=

ofblack&white
9:31 AM

Malaysia. I'm leaving in an hour's time. Only for the weekend, but it wouldn't matter would it? I would not be missed. It is nice to confide in WeiYing, and to know that she somewhat trust me. At least she won't BLUB IT OUT like someone. Hints the size of elephants, I'm dropping them alot these days. If that person still did not catch it then, I would say, she's really a lost cause.

Clammy hands. It isn't good to draw with clammy hands. The pencil will slip.
The crap I am spouting. Somebody is going to pay big time. I am being very random.

Sexist remark about old times.
"No calamity is more harmful to mankind than woman."
How untrue. I should think it would be the opposite.

ofblack&white
6:24 PM

I didn't know it was possible to spend more than you get, but, that is what happened to me. Miraculous no?

Thurday was the day that my favourite pants bore a hole. The bike kept snagging my pants like an annoying fishing line to a fish. They were kind enough to not laugh excessively. Hahah but a video was taken on it. Damn. Lol. We cycled all the way, I like to tease Mich. So cute. Went to the jetty and met with hamzah's old teacher, who looked somewhat amazed that his ex-student was flanked by 5 pretty girls. Went to the waterbreaks (?) sat around, chat about. I looked somewhat depressed and they started to take pictures and videos again. Haha I was just staring out in the sea thinking for God's sake! The video was funny, cause towards the end I send some flying kick.

Naz and sis didn't want to join us at Parkway so its the square four again. I was bouyed by my kaya toast earlier on. Oh and I saw Mdm Halilah. Nice to see a familiar face. We went crazy at the petshop. Then Angie needed to go off, so its the usual 3 of us left. Ate at banquet. I like the food. Mich was so indecisive, that she ended up not eating. Walked around, waited for Ham to finish his tokens at Time Crisis II. Mich unfortunately didn't drool at the baby blue nike jacket. But getting it anyway.

Went Classics, it was such a laugh teaching Michelle how to pool. Ham knows, was fine, aim bit... lost saw. But Michelle is... just laughable. She kept laughing and laughing. Qingrui dropped by. After they went, we had time playing together.

I was trashed needless to say. He went over my Granny's for a while because no one ate dinner with him. Walked to interchange, talking and kena stabbed as usual. Mac-ed. Then... normal dose of arcade. Reached Gran's at 8.30, just in time for my dinner.

Thursday was nice, and I hope everyday would be like. I went down GivingTree yesterday, and rushed of for Yasmin's birthday party. I was tempted to slap or pinch a cute and very red little lobster. Anyway it was not so eventful, but happening all the same. Trashed my cousins at Harry Potter Scene It. Lol. Entertained them with balloons and the likes. Was super exhausted. Tisya and Aqil didn't wanna sleep over in the end. Hurhur.

All ends. =\ Have to settle the food fast man.

ofblack&white
10:24 AM

Mockery. I think God is mocking me. Even the dried wound on my forefinger seemed to mock me. It had to, miraculously, bear initials. I don't know how, but it just did.

My day was meaningfully spent. Sorry to WeiYing if you were to read this. I was pooped, hence I couldn't come down. VERY SORRY.

Had lunch with Mich and went over her residence. Still ever comfy. Fatal Frame killed my heart. I trust Mich to keep it quiet. House Of the Dead was hilarious, and the Burnout don'tknowwhat was terribly addictive, like a drug. I think I shocked her dad with my constant screamings. Sorry Mr Lai. And I finally got a glimpse of Pamela.
Talked my way through till 5 with Mich. Lol. Interesting show next year ay?

Cycling tomorrow with a few, I am looking forward to it to brighten my bleeding day. Lol. I met quite a few TKsians past days, it put a smile on my face.

Hurhur. Everything that makes me remember seemed to mock me countlessly. It makes me crumble like biscuits, it's almost laughable.

ofblack&white
10:25 PM

Stolen from Hikki-san, who is off somewhere out there [:


I really wish she and they would stop it. It is getting on my nerves already.

ofblack&white
8:26 PM

Some days, like today, proved to be busy, yet quite fun to say the least.

Let us not talk about yesterday. It would spoil everything. Was mad at my bro for screwing up this computer, and i swear to god I won't let his filthy paws (yes paws) on this computer ever.
Such a fucktard.

Hennyway I played 4 tokens worth of Strikers II before helping out at the Giving Tree@SouthEast. Did 'motivating' today, went around to get people to contribute some nice hours to organisations. It got me frustrated nontheless, it was normal business. When we go around with a clipboard, people will avoid us as if we are BlackDeath itself. Honestly, lend me a ear at least will you? I hate talking when the other party wasn't the least interested. Oh wells. Singaporeans anyway.

Stayed for the second shift. Went over to Security and it was loads fun. Mainly because I know most of them; Roy Christopher Mong Syahrul Ming Hao. Yeah. Perked up my drabby life they did. I was asked the most ludicrious question; repeat the MRT announcement. Tickled Roy to death. =.= Very lame you all. Played lightsaber with Syahrul at the carpark. Was just going crazy. At least God was merciful tonight, it did not rain boys&girls today. Chris was caught out with the smoking thinger. Got me to fits. And he nearly lost his wallet. I must say, GUCCI wallet.

He reminded me painfully of someone. Howells. I must add this in. Badly needed to. I especially hate it when people throw me jibes about someone I don't even remotely like. It is embarassing. And I don't even tease you about him. For GOD'S SAKE grow up. Stop being so fucking childish. I can only take so much at one time. It's not a personal attack but I think you'll know who you are.

Please. GROW UP and stop it.
I don't find it funny, and I do not see why you do.

ofblack&white
11:41 PM

I slept over at my grandma's over the past two nights. Which was good. I was away from the computer and internet, hence, I couldn't have known anything I do not want to.
Which was good.

I needn't think much over the past few days, for the Givin' Tree occupied my night and days. I met up with the girls on Friday to settle the forms. Rugrats. Not bad, the name is. Went to the arcade, Cas tagged along. She may look girlish, but she knows how to kick ass in Time Crisis II. Qing came by. I was ridiculed as usual. For everything, my height my lousy gaming skills, whatever. He manage to find something.

Met Zul to pass his book. :) Sorry couldn't chat long. I was playing Time Crisis II again. Qing was (obviously) a killer at that. Ah, then long-lost Faris came by. Hanged around the photohunt machine. It was great I guess. Went LongJohns yadayada. I shall kill Qing for revealing... something.

Sat under some HDB flat for taidee. Faris smoked, and I was digging jibes about him dying fast. I hate it when I was ridiculed too often. Grr. But I still miss them anyway. Went to do my shift at the Givin Tree place. Was fairly fun. I had fun. Made a number of friends. Went home at 11+. Haha Ham's umbrella over-turned while he crossed the road. Funny sight. Slept like a rock.

Today was nearly the same. Instead of giving out balloons however, I helped out as a facilitator. I think almost everyone at the VHO booth know me. Really had fun with them. And I got to know nice great people, like Koh Yan Tong (Tina) [: Great fun, went crazy as usual. Lucky I dragged Ham there to kill Boredom. The photographer guy said I could advertise for them. Took 3 pictures at the booth :) But I like doing the nightshift, kinda more hype.

Hahaha... In the end I manage to forget part of... Yea. I'm curing. :)
And I'm loving it.

ofblack&white
6:08 PM